| awfully accurate... again
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Advanced Global Personality Test Results | | | | | | | I will try to post more about the wonderful little things I enjoy here at Pomona.
(Even if they are not performed perfectly haha)
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| I am so sorry.
For neglecting you for months. Withholding from you the one thing you ever wanted from me... the truth, and nothing but the truth, injected and blossoming with emotions, memories, and anecdotes, all from my point of view.
I'm sorry for being so out of touch. I'm sorry for neglecting you and temporarily brushing all the past memories we've had together under the rug. When I looked back on it all, the little traces of the old me that I've poured into you, and realizing how you've affected me so all along as well, I still cringe at the stupidity and naivete of the younger me. I still see certain things I've told you or told people through you and how dishonest they were. I realize that some of the things I've expressed was for the sake of those who'll hear it. I want it to be for myself. I want my actions and words to you and many who see me through you to be as sincere as my soul so earnestly strives to be. I want to touch people through you again. I want to echo God's glory and stand without shame or hesitation as a pillar of optimism and love.
I cannot wait for poetry to flow out of me again.
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I think the reason why I commit to so many different extra-curricular (or "co"-curricular, as they're called here at college, haha) activities is because I am so uncertain of what I'll do in the future that I want as much experience and involvement under my belt as possible... also because I simply can't stand not being needed. I want to serve a purpose. I want people to rely on me to bring an idea to fruition. I want to know I can be relied on. Somehow, I still can't fully commit to some groups fully...but I'm sure if any one of them lets me know that I provide an irreplaceable service to the group, I will be the most efficient, committed, and idealistic participant ever.
*sigh* such is self analysis.
The Rotaract Club here the 5Cs is rather pathetic. There is only ONE member from Pomona, the predominant college here in Claremont (and that kid is SOOOO not representative of Pomona). They don't do much to recruit, nor do they do much, period. For the longest time (a whole year) I didn't even know they even existed, because I didn't hear of any events, service, educational, or entertaining, being held by them. In fact, I was hoping to found one here at the 5Cs, and to relive some of the former success and glory of Interact back in the day. Oh well. We shall see.
I am going to make a comparison chart, mostly for my own edification, but also to show my brother, I guess, what I'm spending my time on.
High School
Interact
Class Office
Newspaper
Acadeca
ASU
Theatre
Orchestra
Model UN
Polaris
Tennis (sort of)
CSF (didn't do much)
Science Honor Society (went to 3 meetings total)
French Honor Society (senior year, when Sharon was president, mostly :D)
Now
Pomona Students for Environmental Activism and Responsibility
Worker Support Committee
D.R.E.A.M. Team Claremont
The Student Life
Choir
Glee Club
Midnight Echo A Cappella
Admissions Office Intern
Pomona Student Art
Food Rescue
ASPC Senate
College-Town Committee
RHS Sponsor
Claremont Progressive (maybe? Political Cartooning? :D)
Intramural Beach Volleyball (if someone will play with me :/)
French Club (ahahahahah! This is kind of a joke)
Empowered Lations in Action (I don't think I'd be accepted. -__-)
why does it still feel like it's not enough? wtf.
ugh.
I kind of want to join the Women's Union. Go feminism.
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| things to keep in mind:
mexican yard workers who lost control of their car and crashed into my nazi neighbors' house handcuffed, hopeless, and desperate, sitting on the overwatered front lawn of their house, wondering what their fate will be. Angry white man and his wife making frantic phonecalls... kids proncing around guarding the two "criminals" who they believe to be lacking status, perhaps. my heart bursts with emotion, pain, compassion, and fear. i retreat into the house. my heart weeps.
mother gave us her all. she is selfless. i must improve myself physically, mentally, academically, spiritually, and interpersonally and make her proud. i must encourage my brother to do the same, and more importantly, my father.
help richard lose 10 kgs, so mom will buy him a car. haha.
lose 16 pounds myself. jogging every morning, swimming every afternoon, work out before dinner.
i look awful with curly long hair. i've seen it in a dream.
baby reagan has grigsby's eyes. may passion, compassion, and love live on. settle down, but never settle for less. hopefully he will never forget what he wrote in the last entry of his web journal. may he return to afghanistan one day to bring security, happiness, and cross culture fondness to those people again. i love and admire him ardently.
2009. first 4th of july in a long time without jessica lin. and panera bread. and lemonade.
Yannan's first trip to china seemed so distant in the past. now it's the... third? Who knows. I'm jealous of her and her opportunities (it's funny because she probably thinks something along the same lines about me)
reminder to self:
be rich enough to never have to pack more than a carry-on in the future. you can buy clothes wherever you end up going so you don't have to bother with all the airport hassle.
be rich enough to ride more than the lowest class. so you can check in with the cute airport lady and flirt with her and tell her that she's pretty and make her day.
be rich enough to have mansions all over the world so that the clothes you buy can be stored somewhere. and it's gotta be nicer than a hotel.
heck, be rich enough to own your own jet so you can fly first class wherever, whenever.
be poor enough in spirit to always remember that these are not the most important things in life, and that you, h.f., must extend a hand to those in need before anything.
what a random jumble of thoughts. keep it. love it. don't forget it.
i want kitchner. i prefer it over inspiration. but we'll see. *sigh*
God help us all :)
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